Monday, May 4, 2015

Stumbling Upon My Post Again

Dear Reader and myself - Joel,

I did not realise that this blog would actually serve as quite a good journal of your life. Reading back what you wrote in 2009 to 2010, I realise so many things have changed. You are now finished with studies, and currently working. Yet, you just started working and know not what the future holds for you. Perhaps in the future, you will be looking back at this post, but then with a family. It is strange, how time changes things and makes one seemingly grow wiser with time. But we know, wisdom lies with the Lord.

Apart from the things mentioned above, there have also been much change in your thought process and way of thinking about life. I see that my current view of life is very much shaped by the Cross and the gospel of Jesus Christ. In 2013, the mid-year conference in which I attended changed my mindset and framework about what it means to be following Christ, a believer of Christ. And looking back at my old self, I think I am able to laugh at myself and say, well you have much to learn and grow.

But at the same time, in my present state, I dare not say I've attained wisdom per se as I compare with my younger self. In fact, as you grow older, you struggle with different things in life, different issues and thought processes. Some struggles remain more or less the same, but some grow more intense or lessens in intensity. And I think one of it has to be how to think in a manner that is so shaped by the Word of God, that the passion for the Cross transpires through my whole life in work, relationship, life and is displayed through the love I have for God and others.

The question really is: What is holding you back?