Volume 1; Chapter 15: A Special Tribute To All MOTHERS; My Mother

I've been waiting for a couple of days now to write this post. I had it in my mind before this and planned to write it today, so now is the time. As I begin, I am actually very excited and nervous, mainly because I am very happy and very apprehensive (don't know of what). So here goes...

Remember that I wrote in the previous post that I am going to talk about LOVE which is so overwhelming. It brings not only the connotation of you know..., but it also refers to the unconditional care given to us by the noblest profession of all - MOTHERS. To tell you the truth, today's Mother's Day is one of the most different of all. Why? Today is the first time I am not by my mother's side, celebrating Mother's Day with her. Even as I write now, she is probably being treated to a scrumptious dinner by my family back in Penang. Oh, how I wish to be there, but circumstances are unforgiving.

Actually, it isn't that bad being away from her this time around. Now, don't get me wrong. I love her of course. What I'm saying is that Distance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder. Today, I feel like I want to be with her more than ever because I had not have the chance to see her for a long time already.

Let me just recount the events today which touched my heart a little. Today, I went to church and there was this celebration of Mother's Day. Well, it's not really a celebration but more of a recognition that today is a special day. So, the sermon was preached and at the end, children (of any ages) were asked to go to their mothers and stand by their mother's side while clutching their hands or embracing them. The Pastor was going to say a prayer for all of those who were standing and as you may know, my mother is not with me. She is in Penang. A sense of loneliness, distance and gloom took over me for a while and I was moved. Tear dangled on my lids and I suddenly realised how precious were the moments when I was with her.

Allow me to reminisce this story which you might find interesting. I remembered the day when I was a young child, probably still in my kindergarten years, around 4-5 years old. That memory is still vivid in my mind although the whole incident was a little blurry, because I was still young then. However, it is significant enough to leave a deep impression in me. You see, during my younger years, my mother brought me along to the market to buy stuffs for lunch and dinner because no one was at home (my father would be working while my brother is studying).

In one of those mornings which I followed her, a very eventful thing happened. I remembered I was holding on to my mother's shirt while she was buying some fish (if I'm not mistaken) from one of the stalls. Then, out of a sudden, my hands were not holding her anymore. I tried looking for her among the people crowding at the stall, I couldn't find her. I don't even notice what was the colour of her shirt. I started to panic and all at the same time, I was crying. Mind you, I was only 4 or 5 years old. Who wouldn't cry when you can see no familiar faces in a sea of strangers?

The next thing I remembered was me standing beside the road (probably wandered off ; the market is a street market) and an old lady trying hard to comfort me. Thank God that there is still a good Samaritan like her willing to help me. But, all I knew was how to cry and I wasn't able to answer her questions about where my mother is. Thankfully, my mother found me after searching frantically for a while which I am certain would have given her the scare of her life. Then, we were finally united. Years later, when I grew up, my mother filled me in on part of the details on how I got lost in the market and now I am telling you all that I know.

I am sure that every mother would take priority in her child no matter what happens because they are still her children and no sane mother would forsake a child.

I can gladly say that today is a joyous day for me because I get to re-experience and relive those moments. (It's not that I only think of it during Mother's Day) Somehow, Mother's Day makes things more special. Everything looks so blissful today in my eyes. Not a worry, not a sorrow, but all goodness is what I felt throughout the day.

Love is something special, something which when given unconditionally, brings joy to both the giver and the recipient. Love can at times be an Achilles heel, causing us to give in easily without hesitation nor struggle, for it can be too compelling at times. For all we know, Love remains a mystery that we can't understand intellectually, but rather can be experienced emotionally.

Here's a link to a very meaningful video clip that I've personally enjoyed very much. I am deeply touched when I watched it, so go ahead, let your feelings flow... http://u.nu/4vm4 (let it finish loading before you watch it)

Allow me to quote some meaningful quotes I read from the newspapers:
The Star-"A mother is not a person to lean on, but a person to make leaning unnecessary." (Dorothy Canfield Fisher)
The Sun- "The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness." (Honore de Balzac)

All that I can say is this,

For in her absence,
I felt her loving presence.



HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.....

Volume 1; Chapter 14: CLuMsY

Ah, finally this page has loaded. The Internet line in the college actually sucks... Can't believe it. Anyway, this post is not meant to complain about Internet and stuffs, but I am here to tell you a little anecdote which you may find very amusing or otherwise... =.=

You know, sometimes when I am nervous, my senses really lightens up to the extent that I am observant and making things up in my mind. However, at the same time, I can get very blurry. Just about at 11.30 am this morning in KBU, I was actually planning to refuel my car at the nearby petrol kiosk. So out I went, walking towards my car parked beside the field. Tried pressing my central locking to unlock the car, but heh, something must be wrong. It's not working.

Double-check again. Yes, it is my car, but why is it not unlocking. Batteries of the remote had just been changed several weeks ago, so that shouldn't be the reason. So I keep on trying but it still didn't work until I heard a very faint sound of the car's unlocking sound. Oops... Gosh... Battery's flat as it seems. Here am I, feeling so helpless as I checked my car. Unbelievable, do you know what I discovered? My headlights were turned on and I didn't even notice it. Thinking back, I must have turned it on when I was driving to college this morning and it must have been an involuntary action that I switched on the headlights. Who would have switched on the lights during the broad daylight unless of course.............you are riding a motorbike!

The first thing that came to my mind is to call up my dad. Well, he is the only one who could advice me now, especially on something relating to the car. Well, he was really helpful and I'm glad I called. He said he will contact my aunt who is staying in PJ to help me out. So she did, where she got to a mechanic to come to KBU and replace the lifeless car battery. The process of changing battery took not more than 5 minutes but the little incident was way out of my league. Honestly speaking, I'm still getting used to all this stuff about cars and parts.

Haha...

Who would have thought, right? I must have been dreaming since last night after going out and coming back that I couldn't even act rightly.

Well, that's all for my little anecdote. Just one small event in this whole big universe of events. I'm just but a subset, as Ms. K___ would put it, so often....

Next post would be on LOVE which is so overwhelming. So anticipate anything but everything. Adios... Merci...

Volume 1; Chapter 13: Claws of Adamantium

Boy, am I excited now. Totally hyped up since after (to the extent that I am writing my feelings down now). Whoah... Blew me off! My commendations for it. Good job, you make my day worthwhile.

Now lets not get ahead of ourselves here. Today is a day which is one of its kind. Mind you, no exaggeration here. Although I must admit it was a hectic day filled with doubts and weariness. We started off with an English essay assessment in class which drained up most my energy, and adding to that is the 100m dash during the App Math class (another App Math class tomorrow, sigh. No offense Ms. K). The lessons are quick and swift. I'm sure many would agree to that. To add to that, we had 3 hours of Physics lesson in the afternoon.

Evening was approaching and I was really wondering whether today would be my day. Well somehow, a chain of events led by God, perhaps, ensured everything happened accordingly. Not a single flaw unless I choose to look a gift horse in the mouth. But, why would I wanna ruin my day. So I played along....

So many things to be learned in one day, I was absolutely looking forward to this evening's night out. Gone away are my worries and yearnings. Why/? It's X-Men Origins: Wolverine. I've been waiting eagerly for this moment since purchasing the tickets yesterday. I can't say that I was expecting a lot from it but all I wished was that it would be a decent movie. And guess what, it turned out superb, or at least for me because the ratings are not really high for this movie. Nevertheless, I enjoyed it throughout. It is one of the moments to savour in the cinema which I wouldn't forget.

Hence, I will not be sparing at this. It is worth 9.5 out of 10 for giving such rare satisfaction that I can find from a movie. Very well done. I dunno about you guys out there, but I recommend you this movie. X-Men rocks!!!

Volume 1; Chapter 12: Houston, We are touching down

As I write, I'm leeching off someone else's Internet network. I am sure there's a good reason they don't secure it. Anyway, I recalled something nice which happened this past week and it felt too good to be true. Let's just hope that it isn't ruined by the outcome of it.

Due to some unforseen circumstances, our Ap. test had to be brought forward to Wednesday, which means we would again be the guinea pigs the second time around after the previous Chemistry test. Well, the day started off with EALD lesson where we learnt about argumentative essay writing. A thing that I must say about this lesson is that it's very insightful. Though a lot of things were cramp in the 2 hours session, I just felt like there was a stream of confidence running through me when I learned about whatever that was taught.

I must say I've never enjoyed EALD like this for quite sometime back. It was really exquisitely refreshing. Next up, we learned about pun. Allow me to exemplify,

Girl: If you love me so much, would you die for me ?
Guy: My love is undying love.

Got you there, didn't it?

Followed by EALD was Ap. test. Haha, probably I didn't get warmed up enough that when it started, I was so shaky that I was staring at the question over and over for some time there. This just shows that pre-match warm up is just as important, doesn't it?

Throughout this day, everything happened to the best, or perhaps not everything. But the thing is this, sometimes you feel the day is made for you because you chose to make it your day instead of letting the day make you. Then, the DAY would be yours to savour.

Volume 1; Chapter 11: Humanity Calls

It's the time of the week where I've finally found some ideas and inspiration on what to write on. Anyone here a Bon Jovi fan or likes his songs. I must admit I like some of his songs. Some of them are very meaningful, eg. "Welcome to wherever you are". Anyways, life is waiting. Either you take it on or see it pass. However, I'm not going to talk about life this time around. I am currently in a dilemma of either to embrace it or to postpone it. Thinking of it makes my head crack, you know...

So let's move on. I've been watching a TV series-"Smallville" for the past few weeks and the more I watch, the more intriguing it gets. What's so intriguing, you asked? Well, the more I see CK in action the more he reminds me of the true meaning of humanity. Frankly, I've wished to be like CK in many ways, to have his abilities and to be a hero like him. But all of us don't have these abilities because (we are not from the planet Krypton, hehe..) probably we're just not meant to have them. Who knows what will happen to us where we are taken over by the greed for these abilities and use them for no good although we may think we'll be heroes when we are without the abilities. We are but humans, right? Nonetheless, that shouldn't be hindering us from be an everyday hero.
Even CK himself proved to be a hero when he temporary lost his abilities (yeah, just like HIRO NAKAMURA). He tried to save his friends and he always sacrificially takes the blame upon himself although it's not his fault at all, because he feels responsible to be there for everyone. That's the spirit of a hero which I hope could be embodied in me. Be there for everyone. So, where was I? Ya, an everyday hero. You don't have to be superhuman to be able to help. Everything little action counts and that's what is important, ain't it so?

That's why I am so fond of this series. There's just so many elements revolving around what we face each day and it seems real at times. Maybe afterall, CK is a symbol of the capacity in each of us to have a heart of gold, even to the slightest bit. Well done. No wonder the world assumes that they need a Superman, because most of the times, we just don't see him around where in fact it's us who are too naive and in denial to notice him. Just open your eyes, and you'll see. But that certainly comes with your everyday Lex Luthor. So don't expect a bed of roses. Nevertheless, life triumphs, doesn't it?

Well, most people are away today at the summer camp. Come to think of it, I'm starting to feel a bit wasted that I let this opportunity slip pass, just like a golden chance to equalise yet failed. However, circumstances are very compelling. So I'll just have to make up to this some other time. "Mark my words, muahahhaaha....". No, seriously, I'm not firing blanks here.

Perhaps there are more things that I can talk on, but that'll be all for now, I guess. Thanks for reading and comprehending. The world already has a Clark Kent. You just need to look harder.

Flying off.

p.s. : Should anyone be interested in the series I mentioned, don't be shy to ask about it. I'm glad to offer my assistance. "Redeemer-Nicole C. Mullen", another nice song. *Humanity is different from life, just in case you think I am contradicting myself*